😁😁😁 (at Manchester Academy)
Waiting for Brand New with @purplebottle Curry Pie for tea! (at The Oxford)
Who gave you the right to be that sexy for 15 years?
New Trailer: ‘Orange Is the New Black' Season 2 - June 6
Who doesn’t want a Ned Stark cake pop?!
So need this for Ian’s 30th birthday!
At this point I’m too tired to even fight so you can totally have him as long as I can have a cheeky snog first 😂 xx
I’m genuinely struggling to stay awake and I really need to pluck my massive eyebrows since I don’t wanna go meet the love of my life with monstrous caterpillars on my face.
I should also paint my nails and have the longest hottest bubble bath but I’m so tired.
I wouldn’t take anything for it anyway.
Literally for no other reason than all those type of prescription drugs were the ones my dad was addicted to and died from.
It might sound ridiculous but I’m scared that addiction is genetic and that if I was taking them I’d be addicted to them 😔
I know that they would help and I don’t mean this in an awful way to anybody who does take antidepressants because I know they do so much good for people- I’m just too scared to!
The new painkillers he’s given me, I have to wean myself onto them and wean myself off them if I decide to stop taking them and that scares me too.
That’s why I never refilled my Tramadol prescription either.
I’m honestly scared of becoming addicted.
But maybe if I feel ok while on these new painkillers and if the pain doesn’t get any better, I’ll ask for something when I next see him and see how it goes.
I bet I sound like such an idiot! But thank you for the suggestion and I will absolutely ask next time if I don’t get any relief or start to feel any less depressed xxx
I thought it was at LEAST 6pm. It is not. I can’t wait for Annie to go to bed tonight. She’s been brilliant but I’m in desperate need of a bath to try relieve some pain for work in the morning 😔
Annie chose a new hat while we were shopping and this is how she insisted on wearing it. She kept telling me she’s a “cool dude” haha. Where does she get these things from?! ❤️ #latergram
Can I just say that the Dr I saw was bloody brilliant. Nothing to do with his diagnosis or anything he said/did to me…
He had his stethoscope round his neck and Annie noticed it and asked “Please let me listen to your heart. PLEASE!”
He was in the middle of a conversation with me and he stopped, took off his stethoscope and gave it to Annie and let her listen to his heart!
Honestly, that was just the loveliest thing. I instantly like people who give my child (or any child!) the time of day rather than just ignoring them- especially since it was my appointment not Annie’s!
It really did make me happy ☺️
I’ve been so excited for tomorrow for ages.
I’m working tomorrow 10-2 which means I’ll be in absolute agony for the gig and I just don’t even want to go now.
Obviously I will still go, Ian’s taking us and I don’t want to let my friend down at such short notice but if it was just me going and I wouldn’t be letting someone down- I would just not bother.
I don’t know how I’ll manage being stood up for hours 😢
I bought myself new Winnie the Pooh pyjamas in Primark to cheer myself up after the Drs.
Snuggled up on the settee with Annie watching her new favourite film Lady and the Tramp 😊
I went to the Drs.
They think I’ve got Fybromyalgia. Because of how the pain is getting worse and spreading to all my other joints, the fact I barely sleep, barely eat (yes I know, hard to believe considering the size of me) and the fact that my joints physically burn and twitch when I’ve exerted myself was a big sign to him that it could be Fibromyalgia.
He was really young (but honestly the best Dr I’ve ever seen at my practice) and so he went to speak to Dr Basu (the head Dr) and he came in to examine me and he agreed completely with the first doctors diagnosis (it’s not a “proper” diagnosis but you know what I mean.)
So I’ve been prescribed some new painkillers called Gabapentin and I’ve got to see how I get on with them.
I’m being referred to a joint specialist as well so that they’ll be able to diagnose me properly (or not if that’s not what’s wrong with me.)
He asked if I’m depressed and I told him I absolutely am. I get little to no enjoyment from anything because I’m in too much pain. I stay in my house all the time unless I have work or absolutely need to go out. I’m miserable because of the pain and because of my weight and I don’t even want people to see me because I just can’t bear people seeing me when I’m so disgusting but I just physically cannot do any form of exercise, just walking is too painful.
I need to get back on Slimming World too, I’m just so tired and miserable. This next week (after we’ve done a big food shop) I need to try get myself into some sort of routine.